Thursday, June 15, 2006

And the hits just keep on coming...

At some point someone is going to read this blog and think, "This chick is either cursed, or kidding."
I'm not kidding. I hope I'm not cursed, but I have my doubts.

I had my annual gynecological exam yesterday. My OB found a lump in my breast.
He's sending me to get an ultrasound to see what it is.

"I'm sure it's nothing, but let's get an ultrasound just to make sure," he said.

I'm sure it's nothing.
What doctor says..."Ooh, that's cancer, yikes!" They ALL say, "I'm sure it's nothing" even if they're NOT sure.

So, though I'm trying not to, freak-out mode is commencing.
The U/S is scheduled for Monday morning, so I have all weekend to freak.


eaf said...

Actually, it seems that often they do MEAN "I'm sure it's nothing" when they say it. At least in my experience. Breastfeeding can lead to weird lumps that come and go, as can pregnancy. I have another friend (pregnant) dealing with this right now.

Try to be optimistic... there will be plenty of time to panic if it turns out to be something.

Jessey said...

I'm hoping it's a creepy breastfeeding related lump, but sadly I'm not optimistic.
With all the rampant cancer in my family, it's seems like it's just a matter of time before my cancer pass gets stamped. How morbid right?
My aunt died last summer (a day before my dad - her brother - died) of ovarian cancer that metastasized to her brain and took over. She got the test and found out that she had the BRCA-1 gene, which means I probably do too. El sucko.

Freebird said...

Are you a big caffeine drinker? I had an US also for what I thought was as lump, but turned out they found nothing. I was told to lay off the coffee cause it causes lumpy breasts. Lots of times lumps can just by benign cysts.

Try not to worry about it. I know, I know, easier said than done. I can relate to the family history too. My grandmother died of breast cancer as did my aunt, my uncle has been fighting prostate cancer.

Well, at least I don't have to worry about THAT. No prostate cancer in my future.

Chin up. All fingers crossed for the creepy breastfeeding lump.

Jessey said...

I have two babies who like to wake up all night long and then still get up at 5:30 in the morning...yeah, I drink lotsa coffee. I would mainline it if I could.
Maybe that's it???
Hmm, fingers crossed.

Amy said...

Fingers crossed! They should just have emergency appointments waiting for something like that. Or, the doctor should have secretly made the appointment for you, then Monday called, said "Oh, I see alump, probably nothing, but there's an appointment open right away!" Less stress that way.

Jessey said...

Especially someone like me, who stresses over EVERYTHING!

Chris said...

Relax and breathe.

As someone whose father had six different types of cancer over his lifetime (I wish I was exaggerating, but I'm not) I know what you're feeling - but you can't stress yourself out until you know something for sure. That will cause other problems.

I know it's not easy, but just try to clear your head.

cube said...

I'm keeping my fingers crossed that it's just some weird breastfeeding/pregnancy/caffeine related lump. They really do happen and are quite benign.

Jessey said...

I am one of those people who immediately goes to WebMD whenever anything is wrong with I've got a good idea about the lumps...80 percent of the time they are benign...but you know me...I'm thinking about that 20 percent.
I'm trying to relax though...

eva said...

I agree with what the others said, but I know you and I know you can't relax. That said: Try hard. Furthermore: WHY do these things happen to you??? This world is f'ed up.

Jessey said...

And they changed my appointment from Monday to Friday, so it's five more days of worry for me. Yeah!