I keep re-reading this post and it is making me more angry every time so I have to erase it in order to go on with life...
Long story short, siblings suck. Some perceived rivalry or slight or whatever from 15 years ago makes it impossible for me to have a normal relationship with my brother now and it will probably always be that way. I don't know why, he just hates the shit out of me. Whatever.
I have to give up on ever having a normal brother-sister bond because it won't happen and it hurts too much to keep trying fruitlessly.
I can only hope it isn't genetic and that MY kids will have a nice sibling relationship instead of constant bickering and bullshit.